sometimes it come and it go... when the time i dont wan it to come but it come... obviously i never wan it to come but nothing is perfect..so i wonder...always wondering if she would understand wat i wan and wat im feeling..sometimes i cant prevent it from happening so i'll just try my best to put it away or try to sacrifice for something.. i know that she is trying to change it, but i wonder if she really understand because the thing that was trying to be changed is not wat i wanted but its something else...this makes me think further and further, not really sure if she gets it.....all i can do is to try putting it away again so nothing bad will happen.

JJ even u cant help me..